Well, I have a sudden thought of blogging because I am feeling so awful now... I saw some pictures in Facebook just now and I am feeling extremely sad... I don't know why... It is a feeling that I can't put into words...

Michelle gave me a book entitled "Good Friends" today... The book has so many interesting quotes in it which made me really love it... And because of that book, I have been having so many deep thoughts today... Am I the one who has so much expectation in my friends or they are those who disappoint me again and again??? I have been asking myself thousand and one whys??? In what way do I deserve this??? I simply don't...

I may be very useful in some ways but that is not the way to be treated... I am a human with flesh and blood... Not something that can be chucked aside after using... My heart can feel the pain... I told one of my friends the other day that friends can actually be filtered... What's left are those that are worth to be your friends... He replied me telling me that it sounds so cruel to filter friends...

But which is more cruel??? To be disappointed by them again and again??? Or to suffer the pain once and for all??? I choose the latter because one deep stab is better than stabbing the same place after the first stab has just healed... I am not going to say that I dislike them but then I won't take the initiative to do small little things for them because they are simply not worth my time and effort...

Today, you made my tears rolled... I am fine with it... But then, there won't be the second time because you are simply not worth it... It's not the end, but then it's not going to go any further than this...