Saturday, May 30, 2009

Confusion & Depression...

Sigh... I am so depressed now everytime I look at the mirror... How am I supposed to cure my face??? I am trying to sleep early now... I am doing mask at least twice a week... Hmmm... Maybe I should stop eating chicken and eggs... It used to work effectively last time... But then meals will be so boring without chicken and eggs... Dishes are already so limited... Maybe I should really impose a ban on chicken and eggs not because of bird flu but for the sake of my face... I hate taking pictures now... That's the main reason I have no mood for travelling at all... Arghhh... Tomorrow I am going to the city to see what I can buy to cure my face in the shortest time possible... Or else I will be very very depressed... Depressed till I hate seeing people... No face to meet people... :(

I am so confused over some people... Why on earth they want to make me confused over the same thing over and over again??? Treating me nice at the wrong time... Offering me help when I least expect and need it... Why must appear so noble or affectionate over it??? What's the reason??? What's the motive??? Maybe I think too much... Purely what they feel over it... No reason or motive behind it... Whatever... I am just annoyed over it... I am so not pleased with it... It's tiring to figure out what's behind every word you said... It's even more tiring to know you... Arghhh...

Shi Hui <3

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

The end!!!

Exam has finally come to an end... The supposed-to-be-excited-and-happy feeling can't be feel... I wonder why.... One night before the last paper, I was really very very excited... But after the answer script was taken away from me, I actually feel nothing... Not even a sigh of relief... Guess I am over exhausted... Or maybe I am feeling the uncertainty... Whatever it is, it's summer break now... 4 months of summer break... 2 months in UK and another 2 months I'll be in Malaysia...

I suddenly have a thought when I was about to update my blog... I am supposed to blog more when I am having holiday... But then what to blog??? Blah... No idea... Just to make sure you guys know that I am still breathing in fresh air everyday... Survived through the exam... Congrats to myself... Hahaha...

Will update when I am in the mood... Lazy now...

Shi Hui <3

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Sagittarian No More???

Found this interesting stuff... There are actually 13 horoscopes and not 12??? There are some reasons behind this which I have difficulty explaining it because I don't understand either... Pardon me... Due to the entry of this new OPHIUCHUS, the date for the horoscopes are adjusted... For those who were previously belong to Sagitarrius may find themselves in other horoscope... And the same thing applies to other horoscopes as well... Hahaha... Check out your new horoscope... :)

Source :-

http://www.geocities.com/astrologyconstellations/ophiuchus.htm

http://www.love-astrology.com/13th-sign-of-the-zodiac/ophiuchus-13th-sign/

How true and reliable the whole thing is I have no assurance... I just find it interesting... :P

Shi Hui <3

Monday, May 18, 2009

I am an owl...

I have to admit that I am an owl... I can't concentrate at all during the daytime... Even though I did not sign in MSN, did not log into Facebook, the laptop display is off, I still could not focus at all... Why is this happening to me??? I have to wait until about 9pm which is after my dinner time, then only I will be productive... I can study till 6am with the help of a cup of mocha... Such an unhealthy lifestyle I am leading... Sigh...

Mummy asked me that day when I was video-calling her... She did not see me for like many many months and the first question she asked me was, "What happened to your face???" So sad, right??? So I just told her I have not had enough sleep for the past few months and I have been sleeping really late... I guess every mother will come up with the standard answer... "Sleep when you have time... Don't tire out yourself.." Hahaha... I wish I could too... But there is no way I can make myself focus and concentrate during the daytime... That is why I need to burn the midnight oil all the time... Zzzzz...

I promise myself that I will sleep the latest at 12am after my exam... I want to have my beauty sleep... My face is like shit now... I am serious... Damn annoyed... I have been deprived of beauty sleep since Chinese New Year I guess... Hahaha... Back to revision... Wish me luck... :)

Shi Hui <3

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Happy family... =)

Another piece of good news from me... There is a newborn baby in my family... This is the 3rd baby ever since I came to Bristol... But this time the feeling is different because the first two babies are my cousins while this newborn baby is my nephew... Hahaha... I have upgraded my status... :P

No wonder they say that so many things can happen in a year time... This is the 8th month I am away from home and there are already 3 new family members... I will be expecting two new cousin-in-laws when I am back... Hahaha... Anyway, I met both of them before... Just that the frequency is like once or twice only...

Not much updates recently because I hardly call back... I am busy with exams... So do my sisters... No one to update me in MSN...

Shi Hui <3

Friday, May 15, 2009

Hello...

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Which is sweeter???

A question posed to me by my housemate, Suhan...



My answer was...


















Shi Hui <3

Monday, May 11, 2009

:D:D:D

I am simply simply overjoyed today... This is the third post that I am typing today... Haha... I gave Chan a call just now and managed to talk to her, Phylis and Calvin... Oh my god... I seriously have no idea how to describe the feelings... Morning I talked to papa, han and mek... Evening I talked to Chan, Phylis and Calvin... It's in ONE DAY... See that... It's 1 day...

This is the second time I talked to so many people on the phone in a day... The first time was during Chinese New Year where I called Michelle and managed to talk to the girls as they were having steamboat at Vi Vian's place...

No words can describe my current mood and feeling... Missing each and everyone dearly... You guys never fail to carve a long lasting SMILE on my face... Muackssss... :)

Shi Hui <3

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Happy happy happy... :D

Woohooo... I am so happy now... Guess what??? I talked to papa on the phone just now... If I am not mistaken, this is the 3rd time I really talk to him through the phone... That explains the excitement and happiness in me now... :D:D:D

P/S : Of course tears did roll just now... But that is tears of happiness... It always happen when talking to papa...

Papa remembers the date I am coming back... He has already plan my breakfast, lunch and dinner on the particular day... Hahahaha... I CAN'T WAIT!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!! Yes, very very fast... First, get rid of exam... Next, pack those unused stuff and ship them back to Malaysia... Third, I am going to visit a few places which is unknown till now... The only one confirmed till now is Birmingham... Their laksa is so yummy... Yum yum... :P Haha... I need to spend more time with my darlings here and housemates as well... Lastly, pack everything and I will be in Malaysia soon... Anyway, that's not the main point...

I miss papa so much... Not forgetting that I talked to Han and Mek just now... Woohooo... Happy happy... Couldn't talk to mummy because she was driving just now... Never mind... Well, this is indeed a boost for me to study harder on this sunny Sunday... Muackss...

Shi Hui <3

Happy Mummy's Day <3

First and foremost, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all the wonderful mummies out there especially my mummy... Stay young, pretty, healthy and happy at all times... :D:D:D

This is not a so-much celebrated occasion in my family although my mummy has 5 daughters... Haha... This is because most of the time, the restaurants will be so packed and full which none of us like it... Hence, mummy will cook for us instead on that day... I know we should be the one cooking for her... But she will never let us mess with her kitchen unless she's not at home... She will prepare some special food like steamboat so that we do not have to go out and dine in those crowded, noisy and have-to-wait-very-long restaurants...

I miss her... :)

As for presents, jie ordered a bouquet of flowers and have it delivered to our house on Sunday morning few years ago and mummy nagged for wasting money on flowers which will eventually wither... I guesss she doesn't want flowers from daughters... She wants it from papa... :P Hahahaha... I bought her a bottle of perfume before... I assume up till now that bottle of perfume is still in her drawer... Sigh... Let me go back and check... Haha...

This year, as blur as I can be, I thought Mother's Day is next week and not this week... Never did I realise that this is the second week of May... As a result, my card was sent out late... Oh no... I am such a bad daughter... Most probably it will reach mummy only on Tuesday or Wednesday... Sad... :( I am going to send her a text later... Not going to call her... I might cry I think... I am not going to take the risk...

P/S : I cried when writing the card... :P

A very candid photo taken at the airport... :D

Speaking of my mummy, I really have to salute her being able to take up the role of a full time housewife... Mind you... My house has no maid and she has to make sure the house is clean and tidy at all times (she is very fussy about housework)... She has to fetch 3sisters to school and tuition (she never makes us wait for her and always on time)... She has to cook although it's mostly dinner... But I understand now that preparing a meal is not as easy as we thought it to be... Her day starts as early as 5.30am and ends around 10.30pm... Poor her... Sometimes she has to help my grandma run some errands like doing groceries and stuff like that... She has to help my dad hoover his office... For me, she's really a SUPERWOMAN... One great thing about her, she hardly scolds us... No doubt she nags but I guess that is essential to let off of the pressure she is having... Imagine having one daughter staying alone in KL, another daughter alone in Bristol and another 3 more daughters to handle back in Muar... Not everyone can handle this I guess... That is why she has more right to nag or scold... But no matter what, she's the BEST MUMMY one could ever ask for... With that, I can say that Shiying, Shi Hui, Shi Han, Shiyi and Shi Wei are truly blessed... Yes, we are...

Shi Hui <3

Saturday, May 09, 2009

Flashback...

There are simply too many things that appear right in front of me while I was reading Yi Ling's blog just now... Her anger, her dissatisfaction, her disappointment, her frustration, etc seem so familiar to me... Those seem to be my regular post here few months ago... Thinking back, it has been almost 2 months since the episode... Am I really fine??? Have I got over everything??? Am I happier??? I tend to ask myself these questions...

I think I am fine... I think I am happier and lamer as well... But...



Edited : I am very sure that I will get over this thoroughly once and for all after I get the explanation I deserve regardless of what the reason is... I JUST WANT AN EXPLANATION!!!

Well, I have stopped forwarding him texts everyday... Sometimes we do chat in MSN but the frequency is like once or twice in a month... He is no longer the one I needed when I am down... He can't do anything at all to cheer me up... Up till now I still have the feeling that he is avoiding me... It's true... There was once he said to me in MSN... "I don't deserve you to treat me so nice"... My reply was, "Whether you deserve it or not, whether I should treat you nice or not are up to me"...

Till now, I have no idea what kind of feeling that I am using to face him... I try to make it as neutral as possible... Yes, it is very very neutral... I treat him the way that I treat my friends... I just want everyone to be happy...

Trust me... I am happy... Although I might not be the happiest girl on earth now, at the very least I am happier than him and many many other people... Cheers...

Shi Hui <3

Monday, May 04, 2009

WRONG!!!

Things have been quite positive for quite some time... But TODAY, it is totally WRONG... Out of place, not right, in a mess, etc... Whatever you want to name it... As negative as it can be... I am so pissed over this... To make things worse, it is not the right time of the month... Revision plus PMS made me in such a bad mood... I am really going to explode...

This is one of the many times when I really really hate myself... I hate myself for being kind, being generous, being such a faker, being a fool... How I wish I did not see any of those... How I wish I can be as neutral as possible towards those... How I wish... How I wish... It's too late...

Edited :

Him : Without me by your side, you have to solve everything by yourself...

And why are you telling me things that none of us can make a change to it??? I simply simply don't understand why... Asking the obvious when you have the answer... So what you get the answer from me??? What can you do??? You can't even carve a smile on my face now... Does seeing me in this state make you feel better???

Don't worry... I'll be able to bring back the smile on my face very very soon... This won't bring me down... Smile at the trouble... Laugh at them for not being able to make me emo... I miss Muhe and Michelle... :(

Shi Hui <3

Saturday, May 02, 2009

I didn't know that...

It has been quite some time since this happens... I did not know that your memories still can bring tears to my eyes... It pulled my emotions level down immediately when that particular word struck my mind... Anyway, I guess I have the answer in me now... It crossed my mind suddenly when I browsed through my texts... Seeing you in such a bad mood that day brought me nearer to the actual reason and answer... I am really sorry for not being able to do anything to help... The full stop indeed has put on a barrier between us... There's no more heart-to-heart talk... No one can help you but yourself... If you choose to sink further, then I can't help you in any way anymore... No one can alter the reality... It doesn't matter now who came up with the suggestion, what matters most is both of us have accepted it...

On another note, I chatted with jie through texts today... I am so happy... My ex-boss, who is her friend's brother will be getting married tomorrow... Chatted with her on many many things... I think this is the only way that I won't cry... Can chat with her without listening to her voice which can make me cry... Mummy is worried about my cough which has not yet recovered after such a long time... Pa is worried about the Influenza A H1N1... He even suggested me to buy a mask which I think I will.. The family will be going to KL tomorrow... Wish I can go as well... But I can wait... Hope they enjoy the trip tomorrow...

P/S : Bristol has reported its first case of Influenza A H1N1...

Shi Hui <3