Sunday, November 30, 2008
How many major decisions have I ever made for myself throughout my almost 21 years of life??? Hmmm... Thinking back... It can be counted using my ten fingers or even five... When I was young, everything is decided for... Which school you are attending, how are you going to school, which course you should be majoring in, etc... Don't get me wrong... I am not blaming or complaining... I know the amount of freedom I have from my parents... So far I feel that my parents have always made the right choice for me... Of course they will want the best for me... No worries about that...Friday, November 28, 2008
It seems scary... It seems that more and more people are reading Blur Nag... I did put a link in my Blur Life but I never expect the response to be overwhelming out of sudden... Hahaha... I am crapping again I know... Don't blame me, please... I am bored of reading articles... So I pay a visit to Blur Nag and to my surprise, there are 2 new readers... Welcome Karen and Michelle...Thursday, November 27, 2008
A follow up of my kek sim moment again... Been repeating in the last few posts that I am disappointed for not being able to attend my cousin's wedding... Then there's this follow up from what I heard from my sisters and cousin about the wedding... Then I did see the photos that my sister uploaded... SIGH~~~ When will I stop sighing???Tuesday, November 25, 2008
I mentioned in my last post that I couldn't attend my cousin's wedding... And my very wonderful sister back at home told me about the whole wedding dinner... Oh my goodness... My heart is aching at this very moment... Guess what... The whole family will be complete if I were there... All cousins were there except ME... At the same time, how I wish I could be there to complete the family portrait... Aih... There are so many sighs in me now... Endless sigh... I want to be there... I want to meet all my cousins... I want to meet my grandpa, grandma, aunties and uncles... This is even merrier than Chinese New Year... I feel so sad now... There are times when I don't get to meet all my cousins during Chinese New Year because we go back to grandma's house on different day... But this time, everyone gathered at the same place, same time and same venue... Yet, where were I??? I was having class at UWE!!! I really really do feel sad now!!! =(Sunday, November 23, 2008
Today is the wedding day of my cousin... She is getting married today... Yet, I can't be there... Talked to mummy on the phone just now... Everyone seems will be there... Made me feel like going back to Malaysia now... Gosh... She is the first among our cousins to get married... Of course I am excited about it... But then I can't be there... I gave my cousin a call just now and chatted with her for a while... She sounded really happy... I am really happy for her too... Congratulations on your wedding day... =DSaturday, November 22, 2008
小气鬼indeed has the way to bring back a smile on my face everytime... He did not fail this time... In fact, he created a new record for himself too... Bravo... He told me that the angel in me should stop working and I should bring out the devil in me... He backed me up all the way just like what Michelle did... I am really grateful to have 2 of them in my life especially I needed someone badly...Sunday, November 16, 2008
I want to blog about this!!! I want to blog at this moment!!! Before I forget, today, 15 November is exactly the second month I am in Bristol... Back to the point... A phone call as early as 6.30 Malaysia time can make me over the moon... I am seriously on cloud nice... He told me that he can't sleep because he is thinking of me... And he called me just to remind me to sleep early... Somehow it might sound a bit lame but I really believe it because I know nothing can wake him up early in the morning especially when he doesn't have to wake up so early... Hahahahahaa... I am simply very very very happy now... I really have to sleep early tonight because I have already given him my promise... A simple small little things can make me feel so sweet... Thanks for your morning surprises... There won't be night time for us... Anytime is morning time... That's what you told me just now... You are really really really sweet... Owww... How am I supposed to resist??? :D :D :D :D :D Woohoo... My Blur Nag has a brand new look again... Just now I was trying to give my Blur Life a new look but it seems that I should not mess it... I am worried I have to start all over again... The chatbox alone is enough to give me headache... I wanted to put a chatbox in this Blur Nag too but somehow due to my stupidity, I changed my mind... Anyway, Blur Nag is about my nagging... I am actually wondering how many people really read both of my blogs... Blur Life I can roughly know as you guys leave comment and messages there... This Blur Nag has neither comment space nor chatbox... Wahaha... I have nothing to nag about except for "I REALLY NEED TO GET SOMETHING DONE!!!"... No more slacking... Shi Hui, knock knock... Wake up... It's time to get serious... No more playing so much...Thursday, November 13, 2008
It's a mistake to tell the truth this time... A big big mistake... I should have anticipated the outcome and consequences... But another part of me keeps telling me that it's wrong to hide it... But then again, I am wrong by telling... Can someone let me know what I should do??? I already told the truth... Very very honest this time yet I disappoint that person badly... I am really clueless this time... My mind never seems to be working properly all the time... Who should be in my mind and who shouldn't... Please get everything right and in order... What am I capable of??? Disappointing someone who showers me with love, care and concern??? I think that's me... You are such a failure... I feel like knocking my head so much... I can't even decide whether I should write out the mail or not... What the... Shi Hui, are you going to write??? I really don't know whether I should write or not... I am always confused when it comes to you... @@ 小气鬼... 对不起... 我对你说了一个慌... 我不知道要在blog或者是mail跟你说... 你可能不会读我的blog... 但是如过在mail, 我又怕你会伤心难过... 不关怎样, 还是很对不起... :(Tuesday, November 11, 2008
I am soooooooo in love with my blogs... Accompanied me braving all the storms in my life... When I am happy, it's there... When I am sad, it's there oso... When I needed something for me to curse or scold, it's there... Although it can't provide me with any advice, its existence is more than enough for me... Someone actually say that I am talkative in nature and in blog I can nag so much also... Sigh... But I don't deny lo... Hahaha... I am simply in love with blogging... I am not that hardworking when it comes to writing my learning log... I have the thought of having AIC Blog... I can blog down my reflective log... When I am going to submit it, just transfer it into Ms Word... Maybe I will be hardworking then... Hahaha..Monday, November 10, 2008
I have a feeling that I just woke up from a nightmare... Finally, it's over... No more feeling scared and insecured... It's a long long dream... How I wish I can woke up from it long ago but it never happen... Luckily, there's someone who is willing to hold my hand to go through the period... Someone who is willing to guide me throughout the whole dream... Someone who is willing to light up the path for me... Or else, I'll still be living in darkness till now... Everyone seems to feel that Shi Hui has a perfect life... Not in the past but she will in the future... Shi Hui... I hate you!!! Can u please stop acting so tough and be so generous towards others??? Gosh... It has exceeded the limit you yourself can handle... Spare yourself all those agony... You do not deserve to suffer in silence... See no evil, speak no evil, hear no evil... This what you should start doing from now on... Cheers... It's all bullshit... Even by lifting your head, it does not prevent your tears from rolling down your cheeks... The tears will eventually fall in the end... Do I feel better after crying??? I think I do feel better... How long will this last??? I myself have no idea... I don't want to be a crybaby!!!Sunday, November 09, 2008
I did not know that your words can be so harsh towards me... I can actually cry over something that I have been told umpteen times by others... When I was being told the same thing by others, I will not have the respond I have today... It's almost unbelievable... Gosh... The problem is I was not being scolded or lectured... I am just being told in a joking manner and at that point of time, I just can't control my tears anymore...Thursday, November 06, 2008
I am so glad I have you in my life... Whenever I am faced with any problem or troubled by something, you'll be there to analyse the situation for me and let me know what I should know... You will even let me know what will happen next... For the first few times, I still choose to trust my so-called judgement but reality proves that I am wrong again and again... This made me trust your judgement more than I trust mine... The first person for me to think of when I am faced with any problem is you... I will have a lot a lot to tell you whenever I am down because you will try your very best to make me smile...Wednesday, November 05, 2008
I am emo-ing again... Not PMS this time... Is there something like Post Menstrual Syndrome... It's PMS too, right??? Sigh... Why on earth my mood took a 270 degree swing out of sudden??? And why on earth I feel so uncomfortable over your words??? Whatever you said just now keep floating in my mind... You seem to be not in the best of mood today and I want to know why... But somehow you keep assuring me that you are fine... Mind guessing game is forever so tiring and I failed in this... You should know that... Or maybe I should believe that everything's fine... Or should I trust my own feeling??? 猜不透....Sunday, November 02, 2008
My life seems to be almost perfect now... I have nothing to worry about except for my own studies and life at Bristol... The rest are being taken care well...Saturday, November 01, 2008
I have been thinking and thinking for quite some time... How many jerks have I actually met so far??? Erm... 2 I presume... Not many but it is enough to make me go through life like hell... I do admit that I did something wrong in the first place to deserve the ignorance... But somehow it has been so many years yet I am being treated invisible... I can just walk past that jerk and he treated me as though I never exist... Funny right??? And yet I was there stunned and caught in surprise for not knowing how to react...
HOPEFULLY...
SHI HUI
