Wednesday, July 02, 2008
There was once when I really wonder what is left of me... It seems that I have been robbed of everything... There wasn't even a single soul I can pour my hearts out... Sounds pathetic, right??? But I brought all these upon myself... Thus, I should get out from it myself... Shouldn't be dragging more and more innocent people into my own complicated world...
In fact, I shouldn't feel despair at all... I still have wonderful family and lovely friends who will be backing me up all the time... Shouldn't I prove to those who think that I can't survive well that I can live better without them... I am trying very hard to salvage everything... From friendship to interpersonal relationship... I couldn't have failed everything... That wasn't how my life should be...
There are still some small little things that I need to do... After that, everything will be back to normal I hope... For those who thought that I can't make through it... Sorry to disappoint you... I still want to thank you for making me even tougher...
Halo... Here I am giving blur nag again... But this time it is different... I am blogging while working... I didn't curi tulang... I have nothing to do... The client doesn't want to come and pass me her stuff... This explains why I am so "free"...
I told you guys that I started working one month ago, right??? I got my pay yesterday but it was way too disappointing although it's within my expectation... But never mind... I can't force them to pay me more as I am just a trainee... Forget about my work for a moment... There's only one word in the dictionary that can best explained my job... SUPER BORING!!! Oops... That's 2words... I just want to stress how boring my job is...
What has been happening for the past few weeks??? Hmmm... Granduncle was admitted to hospital suddenly... Haiz... But I am glad he had been discharged although he is still very weak... Anyway, I am very grateful that he is still alive... He almost lost his life that day... Life can be so fragile at one point...
Life has been not really smooth sailing... Friendster, yahoo, hotmail and msn account have been used by someone without my knowledge... Although I chose to rule out the possibility in the first place, it still happened and that person actually admitted all his acts... Omg... The sky seem to be tumbling down at that particular moment... My heart sank... But what to do... It has reached to a stage that I don wish to mind all these... It's none of my concern anymore... I do not want to bother anymore... As long as he feels that his conscience is clear, I have nothing to say...
Something that I wish to remain a secret is no longer a secret anymore... I still owe an apology to someone... Really very very sorry... It was really out of my expectation but still I shoulder the full responsibility... It all started because of me... If you happen to read my blog, I will offer you the apology when I have the courage...
