I admit that I am feeling emo all the time... So many things happened at one go... I can hardly have a chance to let out a big SIGH!!! How I wish I can say everything out when you guys asked... But then I have my reservations... Up till now, I have no idea whether this can be tell to others or not... That's one of the reasons that made me so down... There is one person who I feel is the best candidate to know about this, but then after second thought, I am not sure whether I should let him know about this or not... This leaves me so frustrated... The thought of saying it or not...

My mind has been flooded with the news everyday... Latest news come in day by day... The matter is getting more and more serious... I feel so helpless... I don't know which party should take the blame because no one seems to be wrong... It's just that anger complicates matter...

Moving on to another matter... I thought I have already repeated myself many many times that I wish to wash my hands off the matter... But why again and again, I am made aware of the situation... I always have the first hand news... I don't wish to have any knowledge about all these... It does not concern me at all... Other people view it as showing off... But I stand too near that I have no idea how am I supposed to analyse and view the whole situation...

I have so many things to say... I simply need a pair of suitable ears... I need a shoulder to cry on as well... I have a sudden thought that tai ma is no longer blessing us this time around... If she is, how come it's in a mess now??? No one wanted it to be in this way... Or it's a challenge that she wants us to go through???