Friday, April 24, 2009
Self-delusion...
[ S E L F - D E L U S I O N ]
A very pathetic word... The one performing this act is even more pathetic... Yep... The pathetic one here is Shi Hui... The even more pathetic one is Shi Hui too... I have been deluding myself on so many matters... My own emotions, my own thinking and myself... I thought by doing this, I can feel better and happier... But as time goes by, I do not feel better... Neither do I feel happier...
At the end of the day, the empty space is emptier than before... If I were to face it long ago, it might have been filled up by more than half now... How does it feel to be empty to the maximum??? Is it beyond salvation???
The happiness gained from self-delusion is so short-lived that you feel even moodier when the effect has gone off... The smile that was faked can make your heart aches at the same time when you smile... This is so tiring...
A dosage of how are you plus some words of encouragement will make my day I think... =)
Shi Hui <3
