Monday, March 23, 2009
I am so so so so so happy today... =)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)小气鬼finally signed in MSN after not signing in for almost a month... Hahahaha... And he did not ignore me when I sent him messages... I am satisfied enough... At the very least, he is not avoiding me because he dares to sign in MSN when he knows very sure that I will be there...
Ermmm... I have no idea on how to put the feelings into words while chatting with him in MSN... Of course it feels so so weird to chat with him because we used to video call... But then I have not been listening to his voice for quite some time already... So I am quite comfortable with chatting... That day he told me it is better not to talk on the phone as it will add on to the pain... I agree because texts alone can make me cry so bitterly... I can't imagine if he popped the news to me on the phone... It happened before... When he told me something that I don't wish to know, all I did was crying on the phone... Nothing else... I guess he is afraid of my tears now...
One more thing, it is so funny when he asked me, "How are you??" and I asked him, "How are you???"... I seriously cannot stand the formality... Gosh... It made me feel like laughing so much... But then it's manners... So I have no choice but to stick to the formality...
Well... It is a good start... I don't feel sad when talking to him... I don't feel like crying when chatting to him... I don't have the urge to call him "Dear"... I still have the nerves to make fun of him... Wakaka... They always say that girls will feel that treating ex as friend is very easy... But this is not applicable to guys... As for 小气鬼, I have no idea whether he belongs to this category or not... Hopefully he is different from normal guys... Haha...
Four years ago, he never had the thought of giving up on supporting me mentally and morally... Four years later, I am the one who never have the thought of giving up on supporting him mentally and morally... It does not matter how many times he ignores me... It does not matter if he does not reply any of my texts... I will be contented enough even if he accidentally thought of me be it only for a second in a day... Simply because he is my 小气鬼... Once my 小气鬼, forever my 小气鬼... This time I am not greedy at all although I was known as 贪心鬼... I might sound really silly but I am very sure about what I am doing... It has come to an end... No matter what I do, the ending will still be the same... I understand that... But I am trying to make myself happy... I am happy by doing all these... Trust me...
I guess this post is not solemn at all... Michelle, got the sunshine feel or not??? Chua is back in action with her long-winded nagging... Wakaka...
Miss each and everyone to the
MAXIMUM... Muacksss muackssss... =D=D=D
P/S : I have a new name here... Chua Chua, Chua is my new name... Tell you guys about my new name soon... Stay tuned to my blog... Muahahahaha... =P
