Friday, March 27, 2009

At this point of time, there are so many things that run concurrently in the limited capacity storage of mine... Even I am caught in surprise... It has been a while since I have so much thoughts... I have the sudden urge to talk about many many things... Who should I tell those many many things to??? What are those things that can be disclosed openly here??? What are those things that I really really want and need to talk about???

Happiness, anger, sadness, disappointment, frustration, etc... To whom they belong to??? Me, myself and I??? Family, friends and I??? Has everyone fulfilled their responsibility they have on me??? Have you finish teaching me what you are supposed to teach me??? The answer seems no but how come you are leaving without telling??? You left me unguarded to face all these alone... How can you be so selfish and cruel??? You left so many of my wishes unfulfilled... How can you withdraw halfway through the game??? You left me not knowing which direction to go... I still have many many things want to tell you... I still have many many questions want to ask you... He's really DEAD...

He used the most appropriate way to bring me down... Tackle on my weaknesses and strike from there... I have no idea on how to defend myself because the most vulnerable and fragile part of me is being attacked... I am very very sure that he knows exactly how I feel right now... He can sense and feel my sadness and misery at this point of time but how can he act as if nothing happened and still keep mum till today??? I have no idea how long more I can wait before I really explode... By that time, no amount of god can bless him... :P

Hahaha... Enough of that... Another random post to vent out my frustration on my late 小气鬼... I made him sound so cruel hor??? Anyway, cruel or not is not an issue anymore because he is a nobody to me... He doesn't owe me anything... I just hope he has the same intention as my dad at the end of the day which is to make me stronger and more independent... :D