Sunday, February 15, 2009

What a Valentine's... Boring and lonely... Forget about it... No special occasion is worth me being excited anyway... Not Christmas, not Chinese New Year, not Valentine's... Laughter dominates those occasion for most people but mine is sadly dominated by tears... I am just having nothing better to do than expecting something that will never happen!!! Shi Hui, wake up... Assignments due on 2nd and 9th March!!! That will be your priority now...

I hate having special occasion... I hate myself for not being able to take everyday as normal as it can be... So what it's Valentine's, whose birthday, or whatsoever... I should not give a damn on it... Sucky life still goes on for me... Putting too much hope and expecting too much from those occasion will only end myself in disappointment and indulging in a "tableful" of tears... What's the point???

I simply don't understand how one could go on a holiday without picking up calls and replying smses... Does replying a sms take a lot of your time??? Does talking to me spoil your mood??? I only need 3minutes out of your precious time... Shi Hui, you are not not supposed to cry over this... Please hold back those tears... I seriously need to get out of this mess before the mess takes control of me... Missing someone to this extent is simply pathetic... Damn it... Somehow I suddenly cannot differentiate not being able to talk to you and you ignoring me... It's the same, right???

Sometimes I really don't see the point of missing someone so much... Does the person you are missing is missing you as much as you miss him/her??? 诗卉, 为什么你越爱越可悲, 越爱越难过, 越爱越寂寞??? 难道他所谓的学习就是让你比任何人都还要坚强但寂寞吗???