Wednesday, February 25, 2009

I am missing the someone whom I claimed to understand me more than myself... I am pining for the someone whom I claimed to be one of the most wonderful person on earth... I am searching for the someone whom I myself feel so comfortable to talk to... I am looking high and low for the someone whom I regard as my pillar of strength... I am awaiting for the return of the someone whom I can be my own self when I am in front of him... I am loving the someone whom can make me feel like I am the happiest girl on earth... The someone is none other than XQG...

I miss him a lot a lot a lot... He claimed he's still the same person I used to know but somehow I can't find the feelings at all... Everything seems so unconvincing to me... Everything is unfavourable to me now... I am obviously at the disadvantage and losing end... I used to think that it's "Us against the world, You and me against them all" but it no longer applies now... It's "Me against the world" all by myself... Who is deluding who???

No one has let me down... Only I let myself down... I allow myself to be insulted and resulted in others overcrossing my border... As the saying goes, being magnanimous to other means being cruel to your own self... I finally understand the meaning... Taking a big step backward is almost equivalent to me raising my white flag... I allow others to climb on top of my head... Plainly because of my naive and stupid thinking that if I respect others, I'll be respected by others in turn... But this is not the case... I was totally being insulted... I don't even feel a tinge of being respected... Not even a tiny bit...

What do I get for holding on??? I was made a fool... I was blamed for everything... I was made the biggest joke of the year... That's life, I presume... No one can have the best of everything... Another question arises, is everyone worth being given a second chance???

Sweet talk is just like sugar... Too much intake will lead to diabetes... Please watch the consumption of your sugar intake... Cheers... =D