Monday, February 02, 2009

As promised again, no more depressed post... The atmosphere in Blur Nag for the past one week is solemn enough... Worse than a funeral... *touchwood* Still in CNY mood... Cannot die die die... Oopssss... Sorry... As you guys know, no CNY in Bristol means no pantang... Hehe...

By the way, I AM PERFECTLY FINE!!! SERIOUS!!! Got over everything... Sorted out my own thinking... Everything is back to normal... January was a depressed month... According to my housemate, my room is full with yin (negative) forces... As a result, I bought an air freshener and hang it in my room now... It's so refreshing now... Full with yang (positive) forces...

I sent an email to dear yesterday and the day before... I read it again both of the emails after I sent out the last one and I myself had a shock... It's like written by two different people... The one sent out two days before was the normal me... But the one sent out last night left me puzzled... After that, I had the feeling that I might really suffer from nervous breakdown that I got so so so worried... I feel that I might collapse anytime... I know what I am doing but I really can't control my emotions... My action is being dominated by my emotions... It's really a feeling that I can't put into words... I guess Michelle had the most of it... She chatted with me almost everyday and she knows that I can be super low few hours ago and then super high after a few hours... Perfectly fine today and the next day emo again... Hahaha... My super high level of emo-ing... Sorry, Michelle... It must be hard on you to deal with my terrible mood swings... People... This is not a joke...

Then this afternoon, my housemate's friend's girlfriend was actually admitted to hospital few days ago due to stress and it leads to her suffering from nervous breakdown... Gosh... Nervous breakdown does really exist... No way I am going to force myself up to the wall and ended up suffering in the end and making those who loves me sad... I still want to go back to Malaysia... I want to meet everyone... Those who owe me hugs and kisses please be prepared... Those who owe me meals please get ready your money... Hehe...

Shi Hui, it's time to stand back on your own feet... No more 钻牛角尖了... It kills... The worst month I ever had in Bristol... I will make the most out of my last few months stay in Bristol... I want to have fond memories on this place... Thanks everyone for the support... Sorry to make everyone worried... Shi Hui is back in action!!!! :D:D:D