Saturday, May 03, 2008
Life.... It has been in such a mess recently... I have no idea on what exactly happened either but no doubt everything start because of me... I have no intention to clear up the mess either... Maybe all these are what I really wanted... I have been so persistent with this decision of mine this time... No looking back, no turning back.... I m really exhausted... Someone like me should never get into a relationship I guess... I cant possibly give up my freedom in exchange of those so-called love... I wont be able to survive... In fact I enjoy the life I had for the past few days... I can go out with anyone without feeling the guilt... I do not have to tell anyone who I went out with, what I did or even what time I went home... I simply find it's too wonderful... It has been a while since I last enjoyed myself so much...
Someone told me about life philosophy last night which made me ponder for the whole night... 将心比心... Somehow it hit directly on my attitude towards others... I felt guilty, I felt inferior, I felt betrayed... Just how many people did that in their life??? Treat others the way you want to be treated... Understand their needs, shower them with it and people will do the same to you... It sounds impossible... How many people did I actually do that to??? The number may be quite a few but no doubt how many people really treat me the way that I should be treated... Anyway, it's really time for me to look at each and everyone of my friends and know who are my true friends and who arent... Live for myself and not for others...
