Friday, May 16, 2008
I know what is the difference between the previous me and the present me...
I USED TO accommodate to everyone just because I feel that they are my friends... Even if they annoy or irritate me, I just forget about it because it's nothing serious to me... Friends shouldn't be so calculative, right??? My life revolves around them... As long as they are happy, I am happy too... How naive I was... Everyone used to tell me that I shouldn't be that accommodating and soft-hearted but I really can't bring myself to be harsh towards them... Maybe I was too young then...
NOW, I made them have the chance to take things for granted... It has reached a point that I know that I can't let them have their own way and I should have a stand... What is never unheard of from me will be voiced out from me... It may be too late but somehow many people do not seem to be able to accept it... Haha... I might seem fierce to certain people nowadays... But don't worry... I am still a reasonable person...
For the past few weeks, I figured out a lot of stuff... Just simply a lot of stuff that last time I wouldn't pay much attention to... I am reli delighted because I have sorten out some thinking which I have been avoiding... The feeling of transformation is great!!! Shi Hui, keep it up... =)
Shi Hui : Have you ever lied to me???
Someone : No... Never... Before never, now never, future oso never...
This is the reply I got... Someone actually told me that... I am wondering should I really believe it... Is there really such a nice person out there??? Or am I worth being treated that well??? *slap myself* I've been daydreaming too much I guess... Haha... Even if there still exist someone so nice, I wouldn't be so lucky either to be able to meet that person... This is simply because life will never be filled with only good people... I have to admit that my life is filled with many wonderful and nice people... It'll be a long long list if I were to list out one by one... But somehow, I've been wondering for quite some time whether this particular someone is a saint or a crook in my life... I have the answer in me now... ;)
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Hmmm... Here I am blogging again... I have the sudden urge to drop a few lines here... Haha... In fact, I am finding an excuse to laze around... I lost my motivation to study for my last three papers... Help!!!! I must find back my motivation...
Later must study, study and study... No more excuses... This time I am going to slap myself if I don't study later... But I don't really like Management Accounting, Business Law and Audit and Corporate Governance... Sigh... Going back to watch tv and study later... Good night... =)
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
It has been quite some time since life has been so enjoyable... A feeling that I cant put into words... I enjoy meeting up with you, you, you and you... I enjoy the conversation with nothing to hide... I enjoy expressing whatever is in my mind...
This morning when I was browsing the portal, I came upon this phrase, "A loving heart is the beginning of all knowledge".... I love it a lot... It's when you have a heart of gold, then you'll gain all the valuable knowledge... Cool... A loving heart, hmmm... I think I have it... But knowledge, well, it's something never ending... I am still a beginner in a lot of stuff...
On the other extreme, I realised that human beings are being "pathetic" in a way... We never cherish what we had until we lose them... We always let our life full with regret... We always allow ourselves to be sad... Aren't we torturing ourselves in that way??? I am one of those pathetic human beings alive also... But in my last few post, I mentioned about transformation... Haha... This is the time!!! Life has to go on whether you are happy or sad... Why not choose to live it happily... That's my spirit from now on... Give me a slap if I complain to you I am in a bad mood or I am unhappy... I mean it...
Exams start tomorrow... Wish me luck everyone... All the best to everyone who will be having their exams and happy holidays to those who are on holidays now... Good night... =)
Saturday, May 03, 2008
Life.... It has been in such a mess recently... I have no idea on what exactly happened either but no doubt everything start because of me... I have no intention to clear up the mess either... Maybe all these are what I really wanted... I have been so persistent with this decision of mine this time... No looking back, no turning back.... I m really exhausted... Someone like me should never get into a relationship I guess... I cant possibly give up my freedom in exchange of those so-called love... I wont be able to survive... In fact I enjoy the life I had for the past few days... I can go out with anyone without feeling the guilt... I do not have to tell anyone who I went out with, what I did or even what time I went home... I simply find it's too wonderful... It has been a while since I last enjoyed myself so much...
Someone told me about life philosophy last night which made me ponder for the whole night... 将心比心... Somehow it hit directly on my attitude towards others... I felt guilty, I felt inferior, I felt betrayed... Just how many people did that in their life??? Treat others the way you want to be treated... Understand their needs, shower them with it and people will do the same to you... It sounds impossible... How many people did I actually do that to??? The number may be quite a few but no doubt how many people really treat me the way that I should be treated... Anyway, it's really time for me to look at each and everyone of my friends and know who are my true friends and who arent... Live for myself and not for others...
